Tuesday, April 28, 2015

fear god and not men

dad! and mommy! man i miss you guys a lot this week. we have been working super super hard. i'm addicted to achieving goals! i used to hate setting goals cause i thought they were stressful. happy to say i overcame that and i have goals for when i get home. big ones. that i will achieve and no one will stop me. on the mission i've learnt to put my foot down and fear god and not men. before i wanted to please both. i've learnt that that is impossible. it does not work and will never work. and if you're obedient and as diligent as you can be physically and spiritually you will receive revelation necessary to do the lords will and find his chosen children. man i love this work. i feel like i just cant get enough of it. i don't even miss you guys.. well i do... a lot.. but its not like an "i miss you and wanna come home" but man dad.... some days are draining and crazy hard and i could use your advice... BUT i'm SO grateful for every trial and hardship in my life... its an opportunity to show god that i will not give up... i like to pray and ask god to show me my weaknesses.. and let me tell ya.. he showed me this week. i'm so stubborn and prideful but man the lord is so merciful! i think back on how i used to be at the beginning of my mission and i was not the best missionary... i thought i worked just fine but truth is that i wish i would have put my whole heart and soul into the work. i really believe that we become converted on the mission. thanks for supporting me. you guys rock. 
   we have been working with 2 couples who are getting married and every time we baptize or marry a family satan is so strong! so i always like to warn them at the beginning and i prep myself.. so this week has been stressful but i'm learning lots! love it!! well i am so proud of vix for going to young women's stuff! young women's is the best! i can't believe that she's gunna be 13.. WOW. ahh i feel like it was yesterday that  became a teenager! hahaha oh man.. can't wait till i get home to give her advice! lol. well i get to do a precall home in like 2 weeks. yay! so make sure you answer strange numbers.. ALSO. it'll be the last call home and the next time i hear your voices it'll be in person.. woot! love you all so much.. be good..

Monday, April 20, 2015

when i did sleep i would dream of teaching

 well hello everyone! well i just wanna say this week went much better than the last. we worked our butts off and i hardly slept and when i did sleep i would dream of teaching and try out different teachings in my dreams to see what would work. so i basically did practices in my dreams ahahhaha i dreamt like that all week. or i dreamt of ways i could be MORE diligent! hahah so i applied what i dreamed and felt good with heavenly father at the end of this week with the work we did. so its been great. hna child was telling me how on saturday she got her trunky letter! that's what we call it.. it asks what airport you wanna fly into and stuff about your mission and life and family.. weird to think i'll be getting that letter in about 3 months or 2 changes.... AH. 
     dad i like the story a lot about joseph and the coat of many colors.. i've been reading the bible from the beginning and the coat actually has a lot of symbolism. its interesting how each thing in the bible or each story has some sort of symbolism of the gospel. i couldn't imagine how joseph felt when he got to see his dad again and his family. its amazing how he stayed obedient and at the end realized that the lord let all those bad things happen for a reason because he basically saved egypt and his family from a deathly famine. its like our trials on our missions. in the end they are for our own good and teach us what we need to learn to get closer to our heavenly father.
   well i'm enjoying my mission more than ever. i love this work and feel so blessed to be a part of it. when i get home i want to go out with the missionaries all the time and help them as much as possible.
    have you guys seen the new bible videos?? they are absolutely amazing. the character of jesus christ is perfect... we show our investigators elvive.mormon.org a lot and they love it.. i've seen it a million times and still don't get tired of it.
   i love you all lots! take care and do whats right and i'll see you on skype in three weeks!! WOOT!
ps  forgot to say.. i gave a talk on sunday (president basically asked me to burn the members a little because they are a little flojo ahorita) so that went very nice.. used a bit of alma 5 and jefferey R Holland lol but when i was up there my investigator's little girl kept screaming... NANA!! aka hermana.. and she was pointing at me and she kept yelling for me.. it was so cute!! love the little kids!

Monday, April 6, 2015

i feel like i can't ever dare break the sabbath day

hey dad! well thanks for your email! its what has been on my mind all week. conference was amazing hey? i learnt so much and i think it impacted me more than ever before. i think its cause i am more spiritually strong than ever so the messages penetrated my heart so much. i didn't really have a testimony on the sabbath day before but now... oh man... i feel like i can't ever dare break the sabbath day. and the talk that talked about always being there and loving those who have fallen away from the church. pray wait and watch is what he said... elder nielsen i think it was. its so sad when someone falls away but we should never give up on them because they are a child of god as well. conference made me so happy and i received lots of revelation but i also felt sooo sad for the world. so many worldly things out there that don't matter and so many people blinded by satan... including the most righteous at times. that's why its so important to pray and read our book of mormon EVERYDAY. i don't like excuses. they will never work when we answer to god. 
   mom and dad. i cannot express how i feel about jesus christ. my love for him has grown so much. its hard to explain because when you have a change of heart its a little indescribable. i have never viewed the gospel in my whole life the way i do now. he is the ONLY one who was able to atone for the world. he did it with his free agency because he is obedient and did god's will. he is the light of the world. my saviour. and i can't wait for the day that i can see him again. i want everyone to know of christ. i want everyone to feel the joy of the atonement in the way that i have. heavenly father loves us SO much! the more i ponder it and think of it and pray and see miracles on my mission the more amazed i become and i get to comprehend a little portion of the love he has for us. when we feel discouraged we need to pray. even if we don't want to... we should remember how merciful the lord is! prayer is powerful and it works. i testify of that. i know without a doubt that the tomb is empty and jesus lives as a glorified being. i love you all. 
    i pray for you all all the time everyday begging god to protect you all and help you comply with the commandments so that we can be an eternal family. 
    we have changes today.i will be sad if i get separated from my comp. i love her a lot and we make an awesome duo and are always in agreement. there is unity and that has been a huge blessing. stay righteous and enjoy spring time!!!